i have decided it ! bwahaha

idea shortage

. accounting students conference 2010 .
. today, 2010 november 19th .
. i'm suffering sore throat ;'( .
. shopping at low yatt .
. maybe will meet 'Si Dia' .

p/s : Ya Allah, please heal my sickness

b a y u
5.52 am
2010, nov 19th

finally the november came & kissed me

hello november :D

haiyya so many things happened but i'm just trying to be better day by day liao (: hee

last october 16th, the one that i love the most has gone & meet the creator ;'( oh ELF, i miss you so much ! please visit me in my dreams ;'( i do miss you & will never ever stop from missing you !

oh this month as well known as exam month ! ouhh babe ! i really love this month (: hee.. i performed badly in this semester.. hurm, when was it i performed better ? haha never ever.. i don't know why i am not interested in doing well in finals.. haha c(; just hoping the best even i wasn't strive for it.. what the hell lar am i writing about.. haha hoping for something that impossible to happen :P well, that's totally me who like to day dreaming in the day and the night :P :P :P

erm, november taught me to be tougher inside & matured as well.. really ? hopefully.. haha.. erm, so many happy and challenging things met me & say 'hi' but i just encountered them with my own style.. what style ? erm, 'feeling-like-nothing' style, perhaps.. hoho

by the way, my baby gtr has been renewed some parts so that it can give a better contribution for us :D hee

erm, the holiday is coming :D so many plans are decided ! hopefully nothing unpredictable things happen as i love happy things just like the other ppl wants.. hopefully the one who i adore.. hehe will be safe & has a very pleasure holiday.. remember me always okay dear my 'si Dia' :* love you muah muah muah :D hehe

okay, lets pray for my bro's health.. as he's now in the ward for bones injury caused by rugby ;( amiinn love u ya 'adinda' ! get well soon heee

with love,

b a y u

8.38pm

2010, november 11th

psst, yesterday a lot of fun happened & really miss the moments (:

note about malaysian football

assalamualaikum & hi guys :)

today i am quite interested in writing something about what has just happened in malaysian football last night !

okay, first of all i wanna warn the reader/s to not ask me any of my opinion relating to malaysian football afterwards because i am not interested as for me they are not really ready to be adored by people like me. don't judge people who do not like to watch the malaysian football as they are some times right in their decision. for me, it is just wasting of my time to watch it & i will never waste my time & money to be in the stadium & watch it.

back to what is actually i wanted to write is about the fights happened last night. hell yeah! i don't want to blame any misbehavior of people in some states because not actually all of them are alike. and also, fights won't happened if there is no response between two sides.

i heard, pregnant woman been kicked. yeah! of course i am pity of her. but people can u think properly. there must be some reason why she has been kicked. it must came out something from her mouth or some of her actions might made others' angry with her. it's rare for people to kick for no reason.

woah! the world cup is more much & billions time bigger than the malaysian football. can u see how they play peacefully with their octopus? why we as the eastern people are damned hard to well behave while the world is looking at our noted polite & gentle attitude?

i am certain time bored when people judge me that i am not patriotic allegedly. hey! if these types of manner u are bringing, just don't be weird if someday, the malays also ill at ease to fess up that they are malays. because of what? they scared people will consider them as rude & bad mannered person specially when those happened last night will spread widely to the world.

i am talking as a malaysian & also to malaysian, i am hoping that nothing go up in smoke will happen again next. please behave yourself specially when u are in others' place. if u want to be only with your tribe always, u can go back to your own state & live peacefully there.

again, i am writing as a malaysian. and not as a citizen who 'kenegerian' (in malays saying).

-bayu wrote this ; 10.50 am ; 2010, october 13th-

my promise to myself

i promise to myself..

because i don't have the guts to promise with other people anymore..

to whom it might concerned..

i am sorry if i reneged some of my promises to you all..

it's now 3.50pm of october 6th..

i promise to myself, from now on i will change to be a better person just after i have settled the BIGGEST problem that i ever had..

ya Allah, please don't ever pull out my strength to still alive happily..

only you, the place for me to complain every single thing of my thoughts..

give me a space & an easy way so that everything that i am doing will be simplified..

dear books, lecturers & friends..

i am sorry for ignoring you before..

i swear that all of you will be my main focus afterwards..

with His willingness, amen..

hopefully i will still have the opportunity to return to the right way back..

i believe that some things are not impossible to be done if we have a high determination to do something..

to the person that i have did the BIGGEST sin to you..

i am really sorry..

i really have to do that or else me myself will be in trouble..

hopefully you will forgive me dear..

lets meet peacefully insyaAllah in the heaven..

i will always pray for you..

you are the first person that i will always remember in every my prayers..

faris

hi..
dear, si dia..
if my heart can speak..
i will let it tell you something about you..

how many times it reminds me on you today..
how many images of you across my computer screen everyday..
how many memories we had together visit my mind..
what i am thinking about what you are doing right now..
do you still love me with what have i did to you yesterday..
are you thinking of me like how i am always thinking of you..

oh dear..
i can't even imagine how it could be when the time you leave me..
my tears can't even stop dropping like the rain when thinking of it..

big hope from a very tiny heart,
i just don't want to be apart from you..
only death dare to do so..

dear, i love you till the end of my life..
with His willingness..
i'm never stop praying for a happy ending of our relationship..

i do love you..
i do love you..
and i'm so in love with you..

:)

cry puppy

i hurt myself.. ;'( totally sad with what is happening now! d happy time just happened this early morning.. ;'( u hurt me much.. did u realize that u have hurt me much ;'( ;'( ;'(

from now on, i'm standing alone without u in my life anymore.. i just cant say exactly what am i feeling now.. the only thing is to cry like stupid puppy!! why is this happened to us?! why?! am i not good enough to u?!

to those who love to see me sad.. love to see us clash.. love to see he is not with me.. now! this is the time.. i will let him go! ;'( go far away from my sight.. ;'( i just can't see anything related 2 u after this.. ;'( it's more than enough to make me remind on u..

i'm regret of those things happened.. I AM REGRET! i wish i could write ur name here.. but in d same time i want 2 clear everything about u in my mind! u hurt me much! ;'( u hurt me much ;'( i dont want to hope anything else after this except to forget you & will not recover our memory together..

last from me, anything from me will be halal to u & we dont owe each other next..